I posted the live version of this song last night

and have been obsessing over it for the past 24 hours.

I can't believe I've never listened to

Coldplay's "The Blue Room" ep before.

It's incredible and I'm definitely buying a copy!!

Anyways, I was reading the lyrics to "See You Soon"

and they reminded me of a misunderstood family member we

sadly lost in early 2010.

Here's the album version and lyrics:

"So you lost your trust
& you never should have
No you never should have
But don't break your back if you ever see this
But don't answer that
In a bullet-prove vest
With the windows all closed
I'll be doing my best
& I'll see you soon
In a telescope lens
& when all you want is friends
I'll see you soon

So they came for you
They come snapping at your heels
They come snapping at your heels
But don't break your back if you ever heard this
But don't answer that
Cause in a bullet-prove vest
With the windows all closed
I'll be doing my best
& I'll see you soon
In a telescope lens
& when all you want is friends
I'll see you soon

Noo you lost your trust
Noo you lost your trust
Noo don't lose your trust
Noo don't lose your trust"

I'll see you soon, Beau.

coldplay live 2003

"see you soon"

(this video completely mesmerized me)

stuck in my head tonight

"nobody said it was easy..."

(then I saw that Avril Lavigne covered this song, so I listened to it... and... yyyyyyyyeeeeeaaaahhhhh. no.)

re-post :)

Bare with me, because I promise I'm going somewhere with this post...

My husband has a heart of gold. He has been in my life for 6 years now and when I think about being married to this man, the word "blessing" doesn't even do him justice. I honestly feel so undeserving to be his wife because he is the epitome of what it is to love unconditionally. He has seen me at my worst- places that no other person has had to see me- and he has only loved me stronger as a result. He takes the blows I've given him, and while any other man would rightfully shut down towards me in response, he turns the other cheek, then apologizes for something I did. He has witnessed me broken and weeping in my defeat and has cried along side me in my brokenness. He takes the blame for things he hasn't done. He has a huge heart. He is silly and happy and always looks on the positive side of situations.

My husband is in the music business. Music made up a huge part of who I was in my teenage years and early adulthood. But for the past 6 years, I've been exposed to so much in the music business that my passion for music has almost deteriorated. People in the music industry can just be so shameless sometimes, and unfortunately we've experienced a lot of that over the years.

But his heart is so unconditional that he constantly reminds me to trust the good in people. Something I so prematurely got worked up over the other day worked out. The people in the situation DO CARE about Hunter and DO WANT to look out for him. I felt silly for getting angry over something that hadn't even happened yet, but it was my natural reaction to assume that the people Hunter works just might not care. It was SO REFRESHING to hear that THEY DID want what was best for Hunter. And I thank God for where he is right now.

Hunter has ALWAYS encouraged me to trust in the Lord with the way things are or aren't turning out, because that's what keeps him believing--- his trust in God. And I truly believe Hunter's continuous faith has allowed God to guide his footsteps. Though he's felt thoroughly confused at times, he is always quick to thank God for where He has him. Because of his faith and reason to believe that God had something better, God has placed him in a current situation in which he absolutely feels loved and appreciated. Though his current work is hard, it's rewarding because he is reminded again and again that he is surrounded by love and people who want him there. And since this more recent transition, other opportunities have sprung from it and I see Hunter excited about music again. I've gotten so upset in past times having to see him disappointed again and again, and now seeing him being loved, being offered opportunities, having his talent wanted is such a breath of fresh air for both him and me. If we chose to believe, then God will show us that His plans are always better than our own.

Now onto my main point!

For the past 2 days, God has shown me the same verse 3 different times. Yesterday, I though about my 20th birthday and the verse God gave me. It was a time I felt unwanted. And the morning I turned 20, God showed me Psalm 37:4:

"Delight yourself in the Lord,

and He will give you the desires of your heart."

I took this verse to heart full on and one short week after my 20th birthday, Hunter waltzed into my life.

This morning, I was having my quiet time and one of the verses in my devotional was Psalm 37:4. I smiled and thought "Hey, I thought about this verse just yesterday!" Then later on, I walked over to my refrigerator and glanced at my calendar. I just turned to the month of June the other day, but hadn't read the verse for June until today. Yup. It was Psalm 37:4. I laughed and said "Ok, God. This isn't coincidence! Teach me again what it is to delight myself in You."

I have been discouraged lately for different reasons, but I have the privilege of being married to a man who is the prime example of being fully content in where God has him. I also have the privilege of believing in a God who reminds me loud and clear as day how to find joy in wherever life has me (Psalm 37:4).

happy thoughts

i've been bumming the past 24 hours.

but today i ate taco bell,

peanut butter m&m's (too many, at that)

let bella take a shower with me (she didn't like it)

heard my husband's sweet voice on the phone

& was reminded of a movie i used to love.

it's the little things...

do you remember a movie called "Angus"?

it's a teen flick from 1995 that me & my sisters used to watch over & over & over

because we loved it so much!

& who could forget the song angus & his secret crush danced to together for the first time?

it's quite the 90's-esque song..... but i love it :)

As most of you know, a monster storm that produced almost 200 tornados hit the south this past Wednesday, April 27. I have watched all of 1 video amongst the thousands of footage taken of the tornados because it absolutely hurts my heart to have to see what those people were going through that night. I've avoided thoroughly reading the damage that's been caused because it's almost as though not knowing all the details have kept me from breaking down. But I do know that the tornados have taken over 300 lives, wiped out communities and that close to 600 people have been reported missing.

As today is the 1 year anniversary of the historical and tragic flood that hit Nashville last year, I know we are thinking about how our communities came together to bring fast restoration and relief to those who were affected. As burdening and overwhelming as the flood was to our communities, I cannot imagine what the communities are going through who have suffered from the tornados that hit parts of Mississippi, Alabama and Georgia. I heard on the news last night that at one point, one of the tornados stayed on the ground for almost 80 miles. I can't even fathom such a storm... but I do know that it is a storm that has made American history, and that is history that you wish never had to be made. So I encourage you to remember the strength our Nashville and surrounding communities formed by coming together to relieve the damage and losses of the flood, and let's find that strength again to be there for our neighbors in the south.

I've listed some sites that you can search and find ways to help:

- Nashvillest has put together a list of sites to check for opportunities to serve in the disaster relief. View that list by clicking here.

- Hands on Birmingham: find a list of shelter needs, be a part of missing person searches, volunteer in Tuscaloosa and Jefferson County. Click here (find tab labeled "Tornado Relief" and sign up as a volunteer. Hands on Birmingham will send constant updated emails to your address with relief projects as they are formed. You will also receive lists of donation needs. Projects will fill fast, as they did with the Nashville May flood, so you will need to literally sign up for the projects you choose...)

- World Vision donation site is here

"URGENT: World Vision is responding to the devastation left by deadly storms in Alabama, Oklahoma, North Carolina, and Mississippi, as well as the levy break in Missouri. We are working with local partners to distribute first aid kits, hygiene supplies, and other essential products to some of the hardest hit communities. An assessment team is also preparing to survey the damage in Alabama and look for ways to partner with churches and other local organizations to help the most vulnerable children and families."

- Here is a site on how the American Red Cross is responding to the tornado victims across the south.

"If you would like to help, there are several ways that people can make a donation to support American Red Cross Disaster Relief: Visit redcross.org to donate online, call 1-800-REDCROSS, or by texting REDCROSS to 90999 to make a $10 donation. Contributions may also be sent to your local American Red Cross chapter or to the American Red Cross, P.O. Box 37243, Washington, DC 20013."

- Alabama Possible has also created a list of ways to contribute to the disaster relief. That list can be found here

- This morning, Pastor Steve Berger of Grace Chapel (Leipers Fork) announced that the church will be getting involved in the disaster relief. If you would like to be in the know of the opportunities as they come, send a quick email to disasterresponseteam@gracechapel.net

Learning to Breathe

I felt renewed after church service this morning.

I love when you are reminded that there is restoration found in Christ.

I tend to forget this and come to the point of growing weary, dragging my feet around, KNOWING I am weak and that my weakness is getting the best of me.

Palm sunday and this morning's church service could not have come at a better time for me.

I found myself singing this song tonight:

Hello, good morning, how ya do?
What makes your rising sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new

So this is the way
that I say I need You
This is the way
This is the way

That I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and
You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how ya been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never thought I could fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad

I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and
You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

So this is the way
that I say that I need You
This is the way
That I say I love You
This is the way
That I say I'm Yours
This is the way
This is the way

As you all knooooooow, Switchfoot is, beyond a shadow of a doubt, my favorite band. With all the crap on the radio today and all I've been exposed to in the music business, they are the only hope I find in the good of music anymore. I was introduced to them when I was 14 after having just moved to Tennessee. It was a time when my heart needed to be nourished with something much deeper than I had been feeding it. Switchfoot's album literally landed in my hands with me not having a clue who they were and I've never looked back. I have never listened to more inspiring, raw, original, heartfelt music in my life. After watching their latest documentary, I think I fell 20 times more attached to their songs than ever before. It's as though every single song has spoken to me personally and gotten me through some kind of event in my life. I literally cannot think of another band that comes even close, and I thank God for their music and the passion He has placed inside of those men.

"Learning to Breathe" is a song that reminded me today that when I'm broken, full of regret, struggling, I am still learning to crawl and learning to "give up" and just admit "God, I need You."

Thank you, Switchfoot.

I hope you find restoration this Easter.